I have little to no interest in continuing this journal. I will not delete it however: far too many memories and entries to just throw away. I have matured greatly over the years and do not wish to continue this LJ name. I have a new journal where I write more academic material and daily life entries than silly, prepubescent-like "emo" entries. I wish to use this vehicle of livejournal for more educational affairs than my emotional ranting about life. That is why I want to focus on my new journal and not this one. Also, I am sad to say that I do not remember many friends on this LJ. I look at my friends list and some I hardly remember. I deeply apologize for this because I know I have shared thoughts and emotions with many of you. But I just cannot remember the person behind the page sometimes. I wonder who many are and how our relationships have been over the years. I just want to continue and grow in my life and respect the past. The best way I feel is to keep this journal but progress to other venues. I thank everyone for their love and respect and influence over me as a human being over the years. I have grown mostly because of people like you. Thank you and bless you.
when your brother tells you your life is fucked, it doesnt even matter: 1. that i got a house 2. that i have an awesome schedule for next semester 3. that a job was even interested in me for the summer
NONE! of that even matters when your brother, who you have looked up to your whole life and who you trust more than your own parents, tells you that you are fucked because of what you want to learn in school and what you want to be. its probably one of the toughest pains I have ever dealt with, that i am fucked and wrong for studying what i am taking. it just doesnt even matter whats good anymore when you cant even feel support from probably the only person you could ever really trust. just fuckin sucks. i was getting teary eyed in the fuckin library for christ sake. :(
Xenos is awesome. i go in to see him and he is like "you look familiar" which is impossible, i have never met him before besides maybe polisci meetings and he asks "do you go to Raos a lot?" and i responded "yeah" and he goes "so thats where i have seen you". he gave me the override, just gotta pass it into some office i forgot off the top of my head but its cool. i asked him about the Social Education Option and he goes "Socail Education Option? whats that?" and he goes online and he is like "oh thats that damn thing Sedgwick made years ago...well you want to be a teacher? eh sure go for it" my advisor is awesome :)
gotta finish my Issues paper :-/. then fill out housing forms. sigh :-/